Whoops

Almost forgot that I had this thing! Man I know it's been forever since I posted on this, not like anyone really reads it, but we gotta feel like somebody somewhere is listneing to us right?

Well where can I start? I'd like to say that I'm where I always dreamed I'd be at this part of my life. Just graduated with my BA (which is true). Working with a great editing team...with dreams and aspirations of making my big move to California. With or not with someone wasn't always a part of my "this stage of life" aspiration, but here's the REAL low down.
- I graduated with my BA in media and film...so to all you SuFi's out there...that would make me B.A.M.F (thats right)
-I don't work witha top editing team...as a matter of fact...I DON'T HAVE A JOB AT ALL!
-California is a distant goal right now...it has to be pushed back (wayyy back) til I can get some money's together.
-I'm still single...things were looking up for a while (like 7 months a while) but that all came to a screeching halt when...when idk what happened but something happened and the situation changed. I could go on and on about it but I won't. Won't change a damn thing.

So thats pretty much the update for right now. I killed my laptop sooo...yeah

I think i'm to scared

I think i'm too scared to love anybody. I think i'm too afraid to let anyone get that close where they have the oppurtunity to take my heart and try to jip me. Any normal human being tries to do anything possible to avoid pain. Smh at myself, i want to experience it all but i'm just to afraid to let myself. I want what i hear in the Robin Thicke songs

Let the games begin!!

So I've offcially seen what I want to call the first movie on my WORST movie of the year list. The Wolfman. TERRRIBBBLLLLE!!! Bencio Del Toro and Anthony Hopkins...how can TWO Oscar wining actors be involved in such CRAP?! Like maybe they think since they won their Oscars they can just go on and do whatever they want...say yes to every script and just keep it moving. I mean both of these men have so many writing credits under the belt that its like a slap in the face. That was basically a straight to DVD type film. (So glad I didn't pay for it)

So what is the worst movie EVER? The Spirit. What a letdown. I had such high hopes for that movie because of Sin City (Another Del Toro) but it was just...terrible. The entire time I was watching I was like...it'll get better. After 40 minutes I knew there was no hope. Who the hell is going to go and see a movie that get's good only after 40 minutes? Thats a freakin waste of money...and trust me the movies up here are not cheap

Sealed with two scars and a patched Heart

The changes in life are always nothing short of amazing. Even the most subtle changes can lead to huge results. That’s what I think of every time I reflect on my past, life then and now.

Childhood always lays out the blueprint of your life. What happens to you then will more than likely impact you in your future life.

I can always remember the pretty pictures that lined the walls in the hallways. I guess it was to help the kids forget where they really were, but once you saw that white lab coat, you knew it was serious business.

It’s also amazing how specific scents and fragrances can always jog a memory. It was always the smell of a sterilized operating room a sterile plastics that brought me back to the prep rooms of yester year.

Missed school days, but thank God I was never held back. Teachers understood, and were even sympathetic but confused. That’s when Mommy would come in and answer all questions.

Restrictions, restrictions, ‘Do this Sharisse so we can monitor for this.’ ‘Don’t do that because it will never be good for you.’ So I grew and I grew and had friends who barely ever asked questions which were something’s that loved. But my restrictions scared me and resulted in my slow and steady withdrawal.

I wanted so badly for people to accept me for what they wanted me to be, but I guess they saw underneath it all that I wasn’t anything like them and I never would be.

And then I received the best epiphany that I could ever imagine. I wasn’t being what God wanted me to be. He has brought me through the trying health trials of my life and kept me fighting and alive. So what if people wouldn’t accept me for whom I really was?

A jumble of everything…sealed with two scars and a patched heart

My project

Still working on getting my pictures together for the Scrap Book! I am REALLY excited now...and really hungry. Actually about to get an attitude soon. Well I'm in class and someone's breath stinks, but i don't share gum

A Post

So I need to update this. Sooo the semester has started and I'm bored and ready for grad! I can't wait. Me and a bunch of the other Thickettes are making a scrap book for Robin and I finally finished my letter now i just have to do my poem...I'm excited. My teacher is pissing me off right now sooo i'm wrapping this up..

And Brett Farve needs to retire..there i said it

R.I.P Teddy Pendergrass

The news is now begining to travel about the passing of a Musical great, Teddy Pendergrass. Teddy made it much longer than anyone ever thought he was going after his terrible accident. We are losing our musical greats (I think they are just growing tired of how terrible music has gotten). I am only 22 and I am reaching out to people in my generation and those in the older generation too. I think it is a job of ours to keep every generation that is behind us a breast of the greatness of music. I refuse to look back on my life and see some of the "hit" makers being musical giants. Britney Spears never took me to a different place and let me feel the music. One of the main reasons why old school R&B is so good is the sheer fact that the artist took their time with the song. They set it up and gave it too you very nicely. Let you hear the music and feel the lyrics